Climbing steep hills.

I thought I'd start this post with a weigh-in.

On Sunday I weighed 226.

Two Hundred Twenty Six pounds. WOW. That number seems sooo big to me. More than big it seems so unhealthy. I was so down about that number. I felt like I had tried so hard and got nothing. Then I dwelled on it and kept thinking about that stinking number. And lost track of what I was supposed to be doing. I went a whole day without 1 ounce of water, I didn't walk and I spent the whole day beating myself up about it. Then I woke up today, took a shower, brushed my teeth and hair and thought...What good am I doing if I dwell on everything I did wrong or everything that went wrong? What about the fact that I walked at least 2 miles 5 days last week or that I drank more water than I EVER have before? That is a pretty big deal right? While my weight didn't melt off of me like I thought it should have it didn't increase and in my book we are going to call that a win for this week :)

I went yesterday and bought my goal dress. It's a super cute size 11 strapless dress. Also it was only 10 bucks so that makes it even better. I have no clue where I would wear but I will definitely find somewhere to where once I am down to that size. When I get to that Size I'll buy something else in a size 5 for my ultimate goal :)

In other news:

My employer is switching all sorts of things around on me. I am trying to be optimistic but it is just not working. I am going from working at home and being with my son all day to working in office for less hours. We are seriously struggling to figure out how we will make this work. Less hours plus gas money to go to and from the office will make money very tight. We can't turn off our phone for another year and we won't use it since I'm not at home working anymore. I thought about getting a second job but it would be next to impossible to find a day care that will work for us since I would need them from 5:15 am until 1:30ish just on Tuesdays and Thursday then some nights if I get a second job. I am working on other ways to save like couponing and I am thinking of doing a direct sales type job also but I didn't do very well with Avon so I'm not sure how I'd do with something different.

This week I am going to work on walking more, drinking less soda and look into what I can do to save/bring in more money.

Wish me luck

PS: My title came from this quote.
To climb steep hills requires slow pace at first.
~William Shakespeare
I would definitely say I have some steep hills to climb :)