Climbing steep hills.

I thought I'd start this post with a weigh-in.

On Sunday I weighed 226.

Two Hundred Twenty Six pounds. WOW. That number seems sooo big to me. More than big it seems so unhealthy. I was so down about that number. I felt like I had tried so hard and got nothing. Then I dwelled on it and kept thinking about that stinking number. And lost track of what I was supposed to be doing. I went a whole day without 1 ounce of water, I didn't walk and I spent the whole day beating myself up about it. Then I woke up today, took a shower, brushed my teeth and hair and thought...What good am I doing if I dwell on everything I did wrong or everything that went wrong? What about the fact that I walked at least 2 miles 5 days last week or that I drank more water than I EVER have before? That is a pretty big deal right? While my weight didn't melt off of me like I thought it should have it didn't increase and in my book we are going to call that a win for this week :)

I went yesterday and bought my goal dress. It's a super cute size 11 strapless dress. Also it was only 10 bucks so that makes it even better. I have no clue where I would wear but I will definitely find somewhere to where once I am down to that size. When I get to that Size I'll buy something else in a size 5 for my ultimate goal :)

In other news:

My employer is switching all sorts of things around on me. I am trying to be optimistic but it is just not working. I am going from working at home and being with my son all day to working in office for less hours. We are seriously struggling to figure out how we will make this work. Less hours plus gas money to go to and from the office will make money very tight. We can't turn off our phone for another year and we won't use it since I'm not at home working anymore. I thought about getting a second job but it would be next to impossible to find a day care that will work for us since I would need them from 5:15 am until 1:30ish just on Tuesdays and Thursday then some nights if I get a second job. I am working on other ways to save like couponing and I am thinking of doing a direct sales type job also but I didn't do very well with Avon so I'm not sure how I'd do with something different.

This week I am going to work on walking more, drinking less soda and look into what I can do to save/bring in more money.

Wish me luck

PS: My title came from this quote.
To climb steep hills requires slow pace at first.
~William Shakespeare
I would definitely say I have some steep hills to climb :)

Welcome to the new normal

Obviously I have been a bit neglectful (that's probably not a word but I'm gonna use it anyway). This poor blog has just been pushed to the side. I didn't want to come here and announce my failures to the world...so I just ignored it.

Hopefully I will start posting more and actually get the weight off.

I have been pretty proud of myself the past few days. I have walked about 2 miles everyday for the past three days. I must say I am pretty proud of myself. I honestly thought when I started I would only get to the gas station (probably 1/5th of a mile round trip) and I ended up going all the way to the apartments a mile down the road. I just kept pushing myself. My motto has been just one more bench (they have benches set up through out the trail) well today I went 1 more bench further and made it to the grocery store making my trip just over 2 miles!!! It's strange, once I started walking I started to not want the sodas as much. I feel like why do all that damage and just throw my walk away. I will admit I do still have sodas, but I had 2 today and it is "normal" for me to 6 or more. I would say 2 is a definite improvement. I am also sad to say I think I am going through some sort of caffeine withdrawal, the headaches I had today were out of this world but if I keep on eventually that will go away.

Currently I am searching for healthy, yummy recipes. I have a SERIOUS vegetable aversion. I was never made to eat veggies except corn, green beans and peas (although in my adult life I've heard those aren't veggies). Now I have a strange thing about vegetables that has nothing to do with taste and everything to do with texture. When I was younger the only things crunchy I ate were chips and crackers, so the crunch of a carrot stick is just a bit alien to me and honestly makes me gag. I honestly want to be healthy and not just skinny and I know that I will have to eat vegetables so that means finding creative ways to cook them and hide them in recipes.

Anyways I am happy with the direction my new healthier life style is going and I feel like I can stay on this track.

Wish me luck.